beneath that tree

I feel excited about my future. There’s a lot of work that needs to be put into the life that I want but I know that me and Jesus together can make anything happen. I don’t know exactly what this life looks like but I know that little me is going to be so proud. It’s taken me so long to get to a place of peace. Even a few months ago, there was no peace. It was all torment. I am more alone now than ever, but at least I am not allowing myself to get hurt. I have built a home, I take care of myself, I have comfort, I have rest. These things should not be dismissed. I’ve worked hard to get here and I’m proud of myself. We’re leveling up, because there’s still so much more to live for. There’s still so many versions of myself that I haven’t met yet. I have still yet to sit and soak up Jesus. But when I close my eyes we are still there beneath that tree. I know he wants to speak but I have not yet learned how to listen to him. But I know he has never left me.