Welcome Back

I haven’t been home to myself in a while. Life became too real, too heavy, too scary for a minute there. I’ve been avoiding. Distracting myself from my own mind and the turbulence inside of myself. I have no words and that says a lot. The expressions lately have been bewilderingly silent, staring at time just pass me by. Praying, hoping and wishing that I could be in some place, some time outside of this one. My questions never stop, don’t get me wrong. I have more questions now than when I began this. Why’s and how’s and mostly WHY ME!? Who knows, and who cares from what I’ve come to find out. Everyone enamored by their own navels, struck by their own battles. Do we ever remember each other? Do I even remember myself?

Something inside of me always echoes out into the vastness of my soul: Return. To what? I figured I’d come back here. Scream into the void. Maybe the void will scream back. Welcome back, S.