On Y Va

Why is it easier to love people than it is to love yourself in the same way? Why is it easier to encourage others to keep going? I suppose the entirety of your misery is worth something these days. You see all these people around you just having deep inner suffering and you just see yourself in them, and now it’s easier to call it out because you overcame it. At times I feel like a fraud though, like I am still who I used to be, but I don't feel like that girl anymore. I think I’ve grown, and again, maybe I just don’t give myself the credit for the growth. Jesus, help me see myself higher and in a new light. Open my heavenly eyes to see myself how you see me. I feel different, I just don’t see myself differently yet. There’s just so much peace in being on my own and living my life. Granted, I haven’t figured out how to develop my rhythm yet, but I am proud of myself. I am starting to see my capabilities and my strength for fighting for a better life. I just want all of that to reflect on my exterior. On y va.