Just Keep Coming Back

What is it with the human condition to keep reverting? The battle is endless. The soul wants to be disturbed. Why is pain so comforting? Emptiness? Instant gratification? The constant attachment to Christ is the only answer. If I even consider separating myself from the root for even a second I revert back. Even with all of the desires of my heart granted, it isn’t enough to sustain me. He is the only one that is enough. His name is Enough. Is it hard to keep coming back time after time with the same mistake? Yes. But the grace of even being able to come back is something that should not be taken for granted. I will continue to return. With shame, with guilt, with my burdens. Because there is no life aside from Him. There is no joy, no peace, no love. And life without any of those things, is not a life worth living. Whether it be just me and Him forever, it is still the only thing that matters. 

God, forgive me for taking a step out of  your presence. Forgive me for sacrificing my anointing to try to fill anything with my own doing. For trying to ease any pain with my own knowledge. For choosing the quick fix rather than your patient work within me. Help me stay in place, in the rest, in the trust that You are working. Help me not forget who You are and all that comes with you. 

In Jesus name.

Amen.